The last two Chat Rooms that we had did not go in any way how I wanted, but I am sure God had a purpose for it. One relationship in particular was really challenging for me, but God used it to help me and the other person grow. God also used it to bring me to a depth in prayer where I have not been in a while, a place that I have missed and want to get back to. He also used it to remind me of my utter dependence upon him in everything that I do, and that I fear him and not what people think about me. Most of the time in ministry I can get away with loving gently; but there are times when a fierce love is called for – love that will speak truth boldly in the way of conviction and correction so as to restore one to a right place with God and others. For me it is always a scary and difficult way to love because of how highly I consider others’ thoughts about me. But when I fear and depend upon him, I can do all things.
The last two evening sessions were filled with great teaching from James White. I cannot even begin to describe it – it was the BEST teaching on the scriptures I have EVER heard. Needless to say, I learned a lot from those sermons. Along with that, the last night we had a Holy Ghost party, which I also cannot really describe, except that it must be the closest experience to what Heaven will be like that I have ever had. It was off the hook! Imagine 600+ people jumping, shouting, singing, rapping, dancing, etc. for an hour or so, all in praise and worship of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ – totally spontaneous worship. No one wanted to leave or stop. It was incredible!